the honeymoon

The honeymoon...

After the wedding, we came home and we both could not stop smiling. Unfortunately we are not blessed with riches and I had to go to work. I left for work and glided out to the jeep and went to work to serve my time. I told everyone who walked into my office that I was now a married woman. Most of the drivers looked at me like i was silly, and replied with..."I thought you already were married." Recap, Bryan and I had been together for 9 years before we finally tied the knot. Now, the reason we remained unmarried for so long...Bryan has not always been mine. He has a daughter, Dakota, 18 and a son, Broc, 14. His daughter was from his high school sweetheart and his son was from his ex-wife. Bryan was married in 1999 to Broc's mom. This is hard for any woman to swallow, the fact of knowing your husband had committed his life to another woman before you. Bryan and her separated after only approximately 1 year of marriage. Then a few months later Bryan came to my hometown to work. After his lovely time of courting me around and trying to feed me artichoke dip, a mere 2 weeks into our relationship, Bryan says those 3 little words that tied me to him indefinitely. And, pretty much in the same breath proceeds to tell me he is still legally married. My heart , which was 30 seconds earlier fluttering trying to maintain a steady beat had now sank into my chest and felt as if it were shattering into a million pieces. He then told me that he was separated and had no intentions of reconciling the marriage. I then agreed that it was not an issue for me as long as a divorce was in the near future. We proceeded to build our lives together and time had slipped by. We would pay the lawyer and have papers drawn up and she would contest one thing or another, so it took way longer than it should have. It costs us a lot of money and a lot of valuable time, time which we could have been married. When it was all said and done, Bryan had 'legally' been single for 13 days before we were officially married. Our wedding was no fairytale, but the love that we shared after being pronounced man and wife was worth the wait. We had our ups and we had our downs, we always loved each other, but until we married, God had held out on the love in which we shared after doing the right thing in the eyes of Him. I thought I knew what it felt like to be loved by Bryan, but the love that was pouring out of him to me, his wife, was by far one of the most rewarding and satisfying feelings I have ever experienced. We lived our love song for almost a yearafter being married, which brings us to present day. I knew it was too good to be true, the devil was on a mission and his focus was my marriage...